Those of you who know me personally know how much I love to swim laps; it helps keep me sane as well as healthy. Yesterday, as I was swimming I kept having to fight back tears. Even the music coming from my waterproof mp3 player couldn't drown out the screaming thoughts. I finally had to quit swimming....tears and goggles don't really mix very well. I realized I really haven't cried much since Seth got out of the hospital. Now it seems all I can do. Tears of relief, sadness, and fear all mixed together. I know this phase will pass too, so I will let the tears flow. Then I will get back to swimming.